Today, at the job I am trying SO hard to love right now, I had a moment.
The moment came in Senior English class.
I had a kids write down all the "shoulds" they get from everyone in their lives:
They should get good grades
They should go to college
They should lose weight
They should date more
They should date less
They should make new friends
They should go on a mission
They should do better
They should be more
They should be doctors
They should be football players
Then I had them write a list of all the "wants" they secretly hold in their hearts
I want to be a singer
I want to be happy
I want to my mom to leave me alone
I want to go to college, not go on a mission
I want to be a dancer
I want to learn to play the guitar
I want to be something
I want true love
I want to be peaceful
One Senior. Football player. Tall. Perfect for the sport. The epitome of a dream Quarter Back.
"I should play football."
"You don't want to play football?" I was shocked, honestly. On the outside, it seems like football is his entire life and passion.
"What do you want?"
"It's ok. This is a safe place."
" I, well, I want to do, you know, art. Like poetry. I want to be a poet." He said it in such a small whisper. And, in high school English, I have to thank God that no one laughed. They couldn't. Not when this big, hulking football player said it so clearly, so quietly, and with such emotion.